No More...

Sam and I had a talk last night about my breastfeeding. It just does not seem to be working. I am not producing enough to make much of a difference. If Sophia feeds from me she wakes up an hour later hungry again and I don't have anything but formula to give her. When I pump I am getting half of what I used to which was not much in the first place. I feel like such a failure because my body is suppose to want to breastfeed. I am telling myself that it was our situation that made me unable start or really continue to breastfeed. Doesn't really help though. I am looking forward to not being so attached to pumping times or having to be back after 2-3 hours to get milk out. I will have more freedom. Also, I am having major back issues because of the size of my breasts (38HH crazy I know!!) I am hoping they get smaller quickly. I have a doctors appointment on Tuesday to ask her any remaining questions I might have about what will happen to my body. She should give me the OK to be able to start exercising again to lose some of this weight. I have not lost much since I gave birth. I am feeling very lazy and no strength. I would like to be an example to Sophia on what a healthy lifestyle is.
Today is going to be a normal day with my daughter. Sounds so crazy but I like the ring it has.